One of my BFF’s wrote recently on her blog about her “little secret.” Her secret turned out not to be what you might think–it wasn’t an affair, a wayward lifestyle, or a financial indiscretion.
No, it was that she allowed her two children to sleep in her king-sized bed with her on occasion.
I would confess that I share the same little secret!
I never turn my children away when they want to sleep with me. We are alone so often anyway that I figure, What the heck? If my son or daughter wants to crawl inside beside me and cuddle and snuggle, that is just fine. They won’t be little babies forever, and as long as they need Mommy, I am here.
But I have a secret of my own.
It’s the fact that I hate food and I cannot cook.
Pretty lame for a stay-at-home and often-solo mom, huh? George is our chef when he is home. When he is not home (which has been the case more often than not the last few years), the business of cooking, food, and the feeding of my children comes to me.
I love my children. I want them to be healthy, well nourished, and know they are loved through every possible means, including food. We’ve done okay so far…but we could do better.
I really do hate food. I became bulimic at the age of 15 and have struggled with it off and on my whole life. I wish we could just go through our days without food of any kind. Food is not fun for me. It is not something I look forward to planning or preparing or producing. I love it when George is home, for he does love food. He loves to cook, choose healthy meals, and he sees that our family is well fed.
But when George is gone, it becomes my duty. I do okay. I can make macaroni, salmon, and bake a few things. But my kids deserve better than that.
I wish I was the kind of mom and wife that I know so many of. They choose organic, they prepare homemade meals, they can their own fruits and vegetables.
Meanwhile, I struggle to open up a frozen bag of corn.
George will leave on May 1 and will be gone until at least September. My goal during the time he is gone is to relax around food, and to calmly plan and try prepare healthy meals for my babies and me.
A SAHM should really know how to cook, and to cook healthily for her family. I’m going to try, come heck or high water.