Hello, Extreme Exhaustion. I’d Forgotten All About You.

The baby is in her bassinet for a few minutes and the older children have been taken out to dinner by our friends, so I’m taking this moment to let you know that no, I have not abandoned my blog. I’ve simply been taken over by unbelievable exhaustion. Valerie is three weeks old now and I am STILL dashing to my bed or to the couch every possible second that I can.

When I was a younger gal working as a deckhand on my dad’s seine crew, I thought I was deprived of sleep when we’d go to bed at 11 p.m. after reaching the fishing grounds and then wake up at 3 a.m. to get ready and set the net. And then, once Eva was born, I thought I was sleep deprived when I was up every two hours with a fussy newborn. But wow—nothing compares to this!

Being awake all night with a newborn and then getting up to meet the needs of two young children is definitely not easy. Thank goodness for my parents, who are still coming by to take Eva and Vincent to kindergarten and preschool each day. I don’t know what I’d do if I had to have everyone up, ready, and out the door in the freezing cold at 8 a.m. each day after being up all night. I have worked up to doing one afternoon pick-up each day, which makes me feel pretty good.

I’m eager to rejoin the real world again but wow, this no-energy thing is killing me. I also don’t want to consume too much caffeine or other energy-inducing methods since I’m nursing and don’t want to inadvertantly keep Valerie awake any more than she already is.

Valerie is now three weeks old, and George was recently able to make it home for one 24-hour period to visit with the kids and me. I was grateful that he found it worth arriving home at midnight and leaving the next day just to see us, and it was good to see him while he was here.

While not a huge disappointment, the 2012 Washington Dungeness crab season has been nothing compared to last year, which is not entirely unexpected. You can’t expect to have a stellar season every year! Fortunately, George will turn the boat around and head up to Alaska to catch the blackcod and halibut quota as soon as he ends the crab season. Unfortunately, he’ll be heading up to Alaska sooner than we expected. Darn!

If you are one of the people who has written to me via my blog with questions and comments that I have not been able to get to yet, please know that I have received your inquiries and comments and I look forward to replying as soon as I can! Thank you for taking the time to write, and know that your feedback and questions are valuable to me. As soon as I get another moment when I’m thinking clearly, I will respond, maybe even in a blog post.

My goal for this week is to rally long enough to make popcorn for Eva’s Valentine’s Day party at school, prepare a snack for Vincent’s Valentine’s Day party at preschool, and make sure the kids have made enough Valentines for all of their friends. I wonder if George will remember to send roses to me this year? I never hold my breath but I do always hope.

Sweet Vincent hosted a tea party for Eva, Mommy, and Frog.

Eva and Vincent making Valentines.

Dad swaddling the baby on a quick visit home.


Eva's Valentines for the crew.


  1. Sending lots of love and prayers your way, my friend, hoping you get some restful nights with renewed energy during the day. Take care, Jen. Love you!

  2. Great to see G. Sorry that you are so tired. It will pass, all in time my friend. Before you know it the three will be all grown up and not need you. It is then that you will ache for these moments, exhaustion and all. Not so helpful now, sorry. Let me know if I can help, maybe with V on Tuesday’s and Thursdays.

  3. Good grief, Jen – you’re amazing! This is an astoundingly linear, well-crafted post for a moment between Valerie’s waking appearances; I’m in awe of what you’re doing, and feel thankful that you’ve got family in town to help cover all of the school comings-and-goings. Glad to hear the update on how you’re all doing – now, please, don’t worry about us, just grab a little rest when the opportunity arises! :)

    (Eva’s Valentine’s for the crew? Adorable.)

  4. Jen, this is so touching and heart-warming. Your honesty and candor are refreshing! You’re a great Mama and those little ducklings are lucky to have you!

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