Goodbye, G. Love and Miss You Still.

And just like that…he’s gone.

After what was supposed to be a decent amount of time off—and was caught unbelievably short by the problematic installation of a brand new $150K main engine and other projects—G is underway towards the 2013 Dungeness crab season.

We pulled off a fantastic grand finale: I managed to secure a babysitter, and G and I went out with Bryan, Brett, Johnny, and two additional family friends. We all shared some drinks, some laughs, a few stories, and a few insults before calling it a night.

If you know G and me, you know that this has been a more difficult time off than usual for us. But I tell you, these guys are all my family. When I get to spend time with my “family” I feel renewed, energized, and better able to handle what’s coming next.

My heart sank when I watched G leave tonight. My chest tightened, my throat constricted, and I waved him off quickly before the tears began to stream and the children noticed.

And then, he was gone.

Watching the boat glide out of the harbor on a cold and dark night is both sad and beautiful.

Watching the boat glide out of the harbor on a cold and dark night is at once sad and beautiful.


  1. And cue another transition… We are solo again too as of Saturday. Mike is making the long trip up the coast from California. All I can say is thank you to Showtime and PBS for new seasons of Shameless and Downton Abbey!

  2. It is definitely that time of year. So many fishermen leaving and wives left behind! I have a couple of books waiting to be read on my nightstand (which should I read first; the anthology on women and drinking, or the Victorian novel?). Ha. When G is gone, everyone is in bed by 8 p.m. so I have quiet time. That is, when the kids let me sleep alone.

  3. While I’m not married to a commercial fisherman – I’m married to a guy who works in sales and travels about 1/3 to 1/2 of the year – so I get this – I really get it! I think sometimes that it is just as hard to have them home/gone home/gone then it is to have them just gone. The family routine is always in turmoil, the playing Mom against Dad is heightened and he’s never there when I need help. I do love my time to read and watch tv in bed when the kids go to bed though! :-) Hang in there! I rely on my girlfriends and friends so much when I need help. I have to say though with a 10 and 7 yr old it is getting easier to do the load myself. It is a lot easier to get rides to soccer or lacrosse when they are older and you can leave them home for a few minutes while you run to the grocery store – also they can help out more! They can do the garbage, the dog poop, the mail, putting away their own laundry, putting away dishes…..and I don’t have to make “real” dinners (always a plus). – Amy

    • Thank you, KC! I will check that one out! I always think of the old “Home Fires Burning” by Ronnie Millsap. More recently, I think of Zac Brown Band’s “Colder Weather.” Here’s my favorite line: “He said, ‘I want to see you again, but I’m stuck in colder weather. Maybe tomorrow will be better; can I call you then? ‘Cause I’m a rambling man; I ain’t ever going to change. I’ve got a gypsy soul to blame, and I was born for leavin’.”

  4. Hugs, Jen. Glad that you got the good night out together, and will be keeping all in my best thoughts, on the home front and on the boat. We all know how to do these transitions, but they never get much easier, do they?

    • Thanks, Tele! You know, they never do get any easier. So strange. The impact of watching a boat leave the dock and cruise on out of the harbor, carrying a large portion of your favorite people on board, is tremendous. Off they go, and there you stay, waving goodbye. And then as we know, there’s no guarantee they’ll return, which adds to it. That’s not something I think about constantly or verbalize, but it’s always in the back corner of my mind. I just hope and pray and try to stay positive and strong!

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